ponteng for a useless reason

All teenagers skip school. Either to stay at home dragged by their laziness or to hang out with their friends somewhere just to have pleasure. Well i did ponteng today with my friend Mei mei.But i did it for her because she was just too chicken to do her spot talk.Spot talk is something when you will be picked randomly to give a talk on a certain topic during the monday morning assemble.So this week was my class turn and my beloved friend had the high possibilities that they would pick her.I don't care going up and doing it.Common someday we need to go out there publicly.Somehow.So it was Monday.The master plan was plan the night before through our phone calls.We met at setiawangsa station but i was surprised to see her senior friend was there, plus she was a prefect.Afraid the plan will fail.But thank god mei mei had the guts to tell her the real story and it was humiliating telling it to her.After all its just a spot talk.Once we reached dang wangi station which was around 7.05 it was still early.So we chilled at the platform thinking that no disturbance would occur but we were horrified with the presence of policemen.It was so scary because we know we are playing truant and the cops were there.We had to slowly wake up and walk off.Our next spot was the toilet.For we decided to change to our pj attire because we will be entering school during our pj lesson. We were hanging out there for awhile.It was spooky too because many people were using the toilet.Then we decided to start our journey after getting some snacks in newplus.We purposely walk really really slow and find the longest ways to go to school just to pass time for we were quite early, knowing that Monday assembles are always long.We were having our morning walk while munching our food.As we came nearer to our school gate, mei mei saw a prefect waiting for the late comers.We immediately hide behind a wall. Avoiding getting any offences.After quite some time, we went to the primary school and waiting for the assemble to end.Suddenly not knowing the guard was staring at us.It was so horrifying.Sudden chills rush into our bodies. We quickly sneaked out and went back to our school.I know the guard was still watching us.Knowing the cost was clear , we went to our class.But going to the class was not an easy thing to do.We had to hide from all the teachers and hiding near the classes.It was not an easy job i could say.The funniest thing is one of the teachers saw us and thank god she knows the story and she was laughing at us.Lastly we entered the class.....wow...what a relief!!!!! We felt soooo exhausted.It was not an easy thing to do.Trust me. I felt so lame...tired...frustrated..grumbling..mumbling...all just for a SPOT TALK.I just did it for a friend and i learnt my lesson.Never to do it again.It'll be the one an only memory in my head of me skipping school.There were 13 absentees in class.....The simple thing that we could have done was just stay at home and quit playing James Bond.How stupid......

i feel like a bitch

I use to log for a guy's love...to know the feeling of being loved. But now im in it and im confused because im in deep shit. Maybe i should be more careful with my wishes in future. Well..this is it. 2 guys like me. so to make the the story much easier...the first guy who asked me will be guy A and the second guy who asked me is guy B....Guy A knows me through my friend's friend. He added me in facebook and we were chatting and stuff.One day, he said he likes me but i was like stunned because i dont know him inperson so i was afraid to say yes yet i said i need time to know him then i will tell him how. So he comes online to chat with me and ya we would make things complicated between us. I was in a situation where i did not know to whether to say yes or not.His a nice guy from one of the top schools. He was perfect but my heart just did not want to say anything but just talk to him.Then here comes guy B....i know him since i was small.We go to sunday school since small.hmmmm...and his kinda like my relation because i met his mom in one of my family reunions.But we are farly related...so ya. Plus his brother and my brothers are like close friends.Me n guy B got fond with each other since form 2 or 3...not sure. We use to tease each other and get ourself in trouble during sunday school.Yes...i admit i have a tiny winnie feelings for him but common everyone has few crushes here and there. I did not make a great deal out of it. Yesterday while i was online, his best friend came and chat with me.We were talking bout him and guy B...like teasing him and stuff. All of a sudden he told me that guy B was sitting next to him.His friends started asking personal questions whether i was single and etc. I knew guy B was asking me all this through his friends. I told him I knew it. Then , guy B chatted with me, he said he loves me very much and his friend told me he keeps talking bout me. I was in a state of shock that i even ask whether it was the right person i was chatting to.At that point, i just said i like him too.He was on top of the world, i could know it by his words. Everything was happening so fast..I could not sleep at night and the feeling was great but i know, im not going to take things very serious...going with the flow.Now what should i say to guy A...he still thinks im available...i feel like a bitch..but i can't control my feelings. Guy A will you understand me? I know you told that if i dont like we still can stay as friends and there will be no differences. HELL No...yes there will be differences...im afraid of hurting you. im confused....when i see you online im gonna just say that im sorry...wish me luck...:(