i quit being a player

Yesterday you made me realise what a player i am. I'm in my 4th relationship now...but i did not notice anything. You 'private chef' you made me realise something and i thank you for that.We use to be in love and you still are with me.But for me it just faded away. I fell for your jokes and your a fantastic flirt er.Things were heating up.Then i just broke up with u within few hours we coupled.You were sad. But you understand and continued being my friend.Yesterday you made it clear enough you still like me. I was just so speechless, afraid i was going to fall for you again for i am in love with RR. You made our chat so emotional yesterday.Pouring out your love and affection towards me.I could not respond.I just told you to move on.easy to say but hard to do..:( But I'm glad you said you will try.thanks...Then you when deeper.You asked 1 bloody question until now I'm seeking for the answer.You asked,' when we couple did you love me?' I was so horrified and it took me quite some time to answer. I said,' What if i said...no?' You said you will feel hurt if i said no.I asked why u needed to know all this now. You ended it by saying to keep the answers to myself and hope to be my friend. Pleaseee be my friend but i understand if your mad at me because you deserve too.I hurt you badly.You made me realise something.I just take your love for granted and said yes and gave you the hope but at the end i let you go when you wanted me more than anything.I will never forget you...whenever i see you i don't know whether we will smile for the same reason but our eyes will see each other the same way our hearts follow. thank you....:)